MELMEL

2011-09-18T01:13:00.002+08:00

its sunday again. the start of another new week.
last week was....full of ups and downs. spending the whole week being most unproductive. didnt accomplish much. spending most of my time watching dramas all the day long.
but there was one thing im glad i did-being there for someone during time of need. seeing u all worried and upset hurts me. u may smile but i feel that deep down inside u are really confused, not knowing what to do, and that constant battle of good and bad within you. its get very frustrating when u noe u r fighting with no one but urself. and these are the few times where i actually dont noe how to advice you. all i can do is just be a good listener whenever u need to talk. and i really hope that i've done a good job doing that for the past week. i just hope that this new week, things will get better. because i really miss that genuine smile from u.

2011-09-14T00:48:00.002+08:00

had an amazing time in KL with him n my friends.. i think it was the best trip ever...i cnt stop thinking bout all the fun and wacky stuff we did during the day n at night *wink
and being able to see his face when i wake up-priceless memory. i'll never forget this awesome trip. love u all! =)

2011-09-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

goodbye singapore, hello kuala lumpur. i missed you

2011-09-06T21:54:00.005+08:00

hi! its been a while since i've updated my blog.. been very busy for this past semester.. yes, one more sem to go and im officially graduating..!
looking back, time did passed really fast.its seems just like yesterday when i first entered NgeeAnn and meet HangU at freshmen camp. i think i'll never ever forget how crazy, dirty and havoc that camp was. all the muddy games we did on the field and the dance-night we had. and then year1 and year 2 came. those priceless memories =)
life for the past 9 months has been great. alot has happened but thank God more good things had happened so far =)
fyp has been challenging, but i believe its gonna get better. After all, the Lord is with me, everything will turn out well.
but until now, i still dont know what shud i really do after i graduate. no doubt im going to take a break from studies for a while. take classes to learn new things, work, earn money before i enter university. but the question is which uni im going to enter. and how.. i dont dare to think most of the time. or rather, i choose not to. the more i think, the more i get worried. when the time comes, i believe the Lord will show me the way.
i've started to read Pastor Prince's book Unmeritted Favour. and so far, its been a blessing. i hope by the time i finish the whole book, i'll know how to handle some personal challenges i've been having with myself for a long long time.
currently having a break now.. so far it has been productive=) praise God that i found a job (thanks to my lovely friends who helped) praise God my baking skills are improving. hehe.. wont say its perfect, but it brings such a joy when my loved ones giving good reviews to me=)thats already enough for me as motivation.and results will be out very very soon.. honestly, im kinda nervous bout it.. last sem wasnt the best sem i had.(thanks to business related module). but i hope i'll do well.but no matter what my results are, praises will be to the Lord because its through His favour that im blessed. not a day goes by without me thanking Him for all that He has given me.although at times i do look at my challenges or envy other people's lives or blessings, the Lord is still and forever here for me =)
and... not forgetting, my new favourites-my hamsters=) MiuMiu and DouDou *very cantonese names* haha! i finally have pets! yippeeee!! being a pet owner is so much fun. always enjoy observing how they behave, giving them food, playing with them and buying stuff for their needs. i feel like a 'parent' to hamsters. hehe! i just hope that somehow they'll know how much i love them=)
lastly, i must add, my dear boyfriend has been great. or rather, he has always been GREAT=) i feel that our r/s is getting more stable or perhaps we have grown abit more mature? hehe.. but its feel good that he is my boyfriend as well as my best friend. although he and i are actually complete opposites when it comes to some of our behaviours, we'll always be able to compromise. and looking at so many failed r/s around me both from the people i know and dont know, im glad to have my boyfriend. and we'll be celebrating our 4th year tgt very very soon=) some people may lose hope in love, but i always believe that one day these people will feel loved again. time will tell it all.i guess im still a strong believer in true love=)
so.... yea... thats all from me! KL trip this weekend.. dont know what to expect, but hope it'll be great=)

2011-07-02T00:51:00.002+08:00

hi blog!! its been so long since i've updated you. haha!
just celebrated my 20th birthday yesterday.. it was simple. yet sweet. with friends and loved ones. feel sooooo blessed. watched transformers 3 and cant help prefering Megan Fox than the new lead actress. haha!
anyway... life has been treating me well.. gave me some lemons, i made lemonades out of some i guess.. i do miss pharmacy science yr 2 once in a while and attachment as well!.. maybe i wud really take a break after graduating from poly. u noe. start working for 6 months or so.. do watever i want. then get back to uni perhaps... my future is still uncertain..but im sure everything will turn out well..
all i cn say is that.. God is really making things happen for me.. ALOT in fact.. sumtimes i do nag, whine and complain as if i have no favour on my side, but in reality, im the most blessed person =)

2011-04-24T00:43:00.002+08:00

yes... tht video made me cry..bcs it really reminded me how he n i started this whole r/s.. as strangers-in school. i was the new girl in my school.. feeling lonely most of time, not knowing much ppl, looking nerdy as ever.. n he came along... then Stage2 was the chase...we started messaging each other alot... like the whole day.. spent hours chatting on the phone... sumtimes until 4-5am. i remember those days..we just wanted to noe each other more. just wanted to see each other and spend the whole day tgt... the feeling was really sweet..and innocent at the same time.. then whn we were officially tgt, our Stage3 honeymoon period became a reality.. all those pictures tgt, all those anniversaries we celebrated, the cute gifts we gave to each other..everything just seemed perfect..but i noe tht Stage 2 and 3 wont last forever... maybe aft the first year, we entered the stage tht cn be good or bad.. its the stage where we bcame comfortable with each other.... it can be a good thing whr u cn just be 100% urself arnd tht person without feeling weird or scared tht u'll be judged.. but at the same time, u might take for granted tht person....he n i... have come a vry vry long way.. we had our quarrels along the way..had our moments where we r just frustrated..but the good times..r still countless even until now..
n i hope we will not reach Stage 5 n beyond whn things start falling apart n eventually break up.. sum ppl tell me tht he n i will end up married.. honestly.. i really hope so too..i cn really imagine myself spending the rest of my life with him.. mayb im being naive.. i dont noe.. all i noe is the he is really special.. really really...handsome guys come n go.. but the good guys do stay..
but sadly.. our path isnt easy.. we have a huge wall in front of us.. no matter how much we try to ignore it, its still there.. n only God knows how to remove this wall..
but like wat the vid says, if things dont go well.. n we really break up, i'll cherish n rmb this beauiful r/s for the rest of my life..remembering tht i once loved this guy and he is the reason for my happiness.. bcs honestly he is one of the best thing tht has been in my life so far...

2011-04-24T00:41:00.000+08:00

2011-04-17T22:51:00.005+08:00

i had the best holiday ever! in fact it was WONDERFUL ^^
managed to achieve almost everything i wanted to do during this holiday. yippeee!
this has been the best holidays i've had. at least it was productive most of the time..

year 3 is gonna start from tmr onwards.. i just hope that attachment will be something i enjoy doing n not something i dread everyday..n o yea.. hope i'll work efficiently bcs i tend to be VERY blur sumtimes.. im dealing with medicines and patients now.. cannot play play -.-
so thats all for march holidays.. time for Year3 Pharmacy Science

2011-04-07T00:12:00.000+08:00

# Term 5110 - ASEPTIC DISPENSING & COMPOUNDING (PHARM 1ASDC)
# Term 5110 - NUTRACEUTICALS & FUNC FOODS (PHARM 1NFF)
# Term 5110 - PHARMACY PRACTICE (PHARM 1PHP)
# Term 5110 - PHARMACY MGMT & LOGISTIC (PHARM 1PML)
# Term 5110 - RESEARCH PROJECT A (PHARM 1RPA)

(im not really excited actually.......)

2011-04-04T22:43:00.002+08:00

n for the FIRST time... i went to JB just now.. spent the whole day there n i realized... i cannot live in Malaysia in the future.. mayb i've changed for the past 4 years here.. gotten used to the whole spore way of life..mostly the environment. besides the yummy food i ate today (curry chicken rice, fried noodles, donuts), the clothes (mainly the fashion) isnt what i'll wear in spore.. or maybe bcs im too used to shopping at Forever 21, Cotton On n stuff like that.. i even secretly feel that Bugis Street clothes are nicer! LOL... BUT.. it was a fun day being with him.. in fact its our first time going out of Spore!!!! finally!!! had a good laugh over every single thing^^

2011-04-03T01:48:00.000+08:00

2011-04-01T01:16:00.003+08:00

to sum up my holiday so far-WOW!
-improved GPA.. extremely happy bout it=)
-just had my FIRST kite-flying+picnic session with him, syiqin, shafiq (LOVE IT)
-thank you Sufi, Baz, and him for making yesterday a good time of shooting.. haha!! the more i laugh the more relax i bcame=)
-seriously i wish that this holiday wont end.. school is starting in arnd 2 weeks time...

2011-03-28T01:31:00.002+08:00

3yrs 5 months
no matter what our future is, im just blessed to have fallen in love with the greatest guy
love u lots

2011-03-22T23:53:00.020+08:00

BATAM TRIP WAS AWESOME!!
NEW FRIENDS, ADORABLE KIDS AT ORPHANAGES
MAY GOD BLESS THE KIDS..THEY DESERVE A GREAT BLESSED LIFE AHEAD =)

2011-03-17T01:18:00.000+08:00

♥

2011-03-16T04:16:00.000+08:00

gonna miss this guy for 5 days. hehe!

2011-03-15T02:03:00.002+08:00

yes..im always into romantic comedies.. n i just finished one-Love and Other Drugs. hehe.. thank gudness Anne Hathaway is hot, because there is alot of sex scenes. seriously no wonder the movie is m18 or i think r21??...its not those funny romantic comedies like the usuals.. its bout having to love sum1 who is with a chronic disease..and i actually understand and know the disease Parkisons in the movie, Pfzier, NSAID, n Viagra! hehe.. finally my knowledge on diseases n drug names paid off. i ACTUALLY get what they r talking bout. so anyway, there is smth bout this movie tht i just love bout. although critics didnt really like this movie (they usually praise boring dramas instead), I LIKE IT.. cause it made me feel tht i shud cherish more of the person i love. to just live for the moment with the person i love.

2011-03-12T04:15:00.001+08:00

lets say..... if the world just decides to end..
i just wanna say... i have a GREAT life blessed by God
with wonderful people. LOVE YOU =)
*RANDOM*

2011-03-11T02:47:00.005+08:00

yup, im on a movie marathon. watching movies tht i didnt get to watch and those tht i just miss watching =)

just watched last nite..n yes-Natalie Portman is HOT!!
cant believe i didnt watch this in the cinema.
i always fall for romantic comedies like these =)

used to dance whenever i hear that Chicken Little song..haha!

Chicken Run (been watching alot of cartoons lately. hehe)

seriously cant wait for the part 2 coming out this May! =) AWESOMENESS

yes, its a Tamil movie.BUT IT IS A GREAT MOVIE! my first Tamil movie actually.. n believe or not, its bout life of engineering students (can relate to my bf.hah!). very touching story though. watched it 4 times alrdy actually. but im still laughing at every single funny scene.

2011-03-11T01:15:00.001+08:00

Here we are again

I feel the chemicals kickin' in

2011-03-09T03:09:00.000+08:00

2011-03-08T01:16:00.010+08:00

LIFE IS GREAT NOW. NO WORRIES.JUST REALXING

(My Famous 'Detergent' drink!)

(The day i swear i had abs after laughing sooooooo much at Kumar's standup comedy)

(shop for new accessories ^^)

NO MORE BOOKS FOR NOW. YAY!!!

2011-02-25T23:54:00.003+08:00

its hard to tell...even if i did which i've done it b4, who would really understand what im going thru? there is sumthing wrong, i noe. but i just dont noe how to get out of it.. its always this same old cycle that we go thru. happy-->laugh-->sad. its killing me deep inside, because im really really helpless

2011-02-24T18:01:00.003+08:00

2011-02-23T03:38:00.001+08:00

2011-02-22T00:53:00.005+08:00

Been studying ALOT ALOT ALOT lately... exams make me crazy, vulgar, angry, cranky
I go mad almost every midnite *mummy n sis just laugh at my silly-little-girl-moodiness*
(trying out my new lomo app. hehe^^ im doing absolutely anything to relieve stress. including blogging this post)

Caffeine has successfully keep me awake in countless nights to mug
i get very very hungry easily too lately. maybe its the stress??..

mummy watching HK drama=so hard to study at home =(
have to go to McDonalds instead.hmm..

Phobia seeing my own notes. but i laugh when i see drug names like 'Perindopril' or smth like that. reminds me of Ferind. hehe =)
n..thankfully he is there to study with me. he makes me laugh
and yea..exam=no mood to make up/dress up (went out wearing specs alrdy)

my iphone is the best thing i cn ever have.. whn im moody, i'll play Angry Birds. hehe!!

K, back to studying! Gambateh to everyone that is studying for exams!!

2011-02-15T02:07:00.000+08:00

im just a simple girl that likes receiving flowers once in a while =)

2011-02-13T02:29:00.000+08:00

2011-02-13T00:39:00.002+08:00

i think im breaking down again. studies are alrdy tough enuf thn now im having more n more problems with you...its like i dont really understand you lately..i really dont noe what is wrong between us lately. but i noe. its tearing me apart.

2011-02-12T01:54:00.000+08:00

2011-02-10T21:58:00.001+08:00

MY NEW RESOLUTION: GO TO A FOREIGN LAND AND WATCH TAYLOR SWIFT PERFORMING LIVE!!

2011-02-10T19:30:00.001+08:00

Taylor Swift Live in Singapore
(how i really wish i was there to see her)

P!nk - F**kin' Perfect

2011-02-04T18:45:00.000+08:00

i think every girl especially should listen to this song.
We r indeed all perfect. in our own unique way.
Dont let the world tell you to change who you are inside.

Train - Marry Me

2011-02-04T18:33:00.001+08:00

Im a believer of marriage.
Im a believer of true love.
I still believe in all this despite how upside down the world has become.

2011-02-04T16:27:00.009+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!
This rabbit year will be another year of abundance in the Lord!

*face as round as the orange.LOL*

sis is getting married in 2 months time. OMG!!^^

best thing bout CNY is spending time with the whole family. uncles, aunties, cousins gather together =)

my ever most beautiful sis n mummy!!
mummy forgot to buy cheongsam for me *again*

dear daddy, if you r looking down from above, know that our family is blessed =)

we are turning 20 this year. time flies.
i used to be taller than him. NOT ANYMORE-.-

grandma still going strong at age of 83!!
still cannot beat her in mahjong session. haha!

food in abundance for the past few days XD

2011-02-03T02:45:00.001+08:00

Happy Rabbit Year everyone!! =)
*shall not mention anything bout my studies/school stuff cz thr isnt much happiness in it anyway*

2011-01-22T01:35:00.010+08:00

To summarize my life lately..

School has been HECTIC.. no joke. it can be overloading sumtimes too =( it seems as if we have countless things to study, projects, assignments, and the list goes on......... my eyebags are getting worst.. PIMPLES!! o gosh.. so im really really really looking forward to March whn my break starts. hehe!!

Cant wait for Valentine's Day.. dont ask me y ^^

Shall bake as soon as i have the TIME...
i hope my plan will succeed. if it does its gonna be great=)

n yes!! SHOPPING. the last time i went shopping was... hmm... I CANT RMB=(
whn i dont have the cash, i see sale+nice clothes everywhr
whn i finally have the cash, the things i wanted r not there anymore..
but i wanna shop once! at least during CNY. JUST ONCE..

i SHOULD be buying a polaroid camera soon. hehe.. with my angpau money of course=)
wanna get a similar one like syiqin's. =)

life can really be stressful at times (now that i have quiz+projects every week)
but thankfully...God is here for me
What a relieve to know that things will always turn out good no matter what.
ITS GRACE

*i ADORE TUMBLR PICTURES. i hope i can create pics like these too =)*

2011-01-18T21:21:00.000+08:00

WELL SAID

Taylor Swift - Back to December

2011-01-14T01:00:00.001+08:00

I posted this same vid in twitter n fb. hehehe!! She made me love the snow even more =)

2011-01-09T01:34:00.001+08:00

Taylor Swift-Sparks Fly =)

The way you move is like a full-on rainstorm
And I'm a house of cards
You're the kind of reckless that should
Send me running but
I kinda know that I won't get far
And you stood there in front of me
Just close enough to touch
Close enough to hope you couldn't see what I was thinking of

Chorus
Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
Cause I see sparks fly
Whenever you smile
Get me with those green eyes baby
As the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around
Cause I see sparks fly
Whenever you smile

My mind forgets to remind me
You're a bad idea
You touch me once and it's really something
You find I'm even better than
You imagined I would be
I'm on my guard for the rest of the world, but with you
I know it's no good
And I could wait patiently
But I really wish you would

Repeat Chorus

I'll run my fingers through your hair
And watch the lights go wild
Just keep on keeping your eyes on me
It's just wrong enough to make it feel right
And lead me up the staircase
Won't you whisper soft and slow
I'm captivated by you baby like a fireworks show

Repeat Chorus

Sparks fly, oh baby smile
And the sparks fly

2011-01-08T00:44:00.003+08:00

2011-01-07T01:21:00.001+08:00

THIS YEAR WILL BE ANOTHER GREAT YEAR FOR US =)
LOVE YOU

2011-01-07T01:04:00.002+08:00

my 2nd time being involved in NP open house...explaining the same thing n process over n over again to students n parents for 4 hours or so. gosh!!! tiring!... sum students seemed really interested while sum gave that 'lol' or boring face -.- but dont care..as long as i've done my job talking bout my course.. in a way, its like im convincing them to join my course.. hehe.. but behind the scenes, my course aint easy AT ALL!!! u have modules like Immunology, Pathology, Microbiology, n bla3.... it doesnt even sound easy. n yet during the open house we all give that smiling face to everyone saying 'we are pharmacy science students n this is what we do in our course.........' when actually we just showed 20% of what we do.. how ironic.. but...in a way, i didnt regret taking this course. no matter how tough it might be...n rarely ppl get into their 5th choice course n actually liking it.. mayb its meant to be aft all? =)

2011-01-04T23:44:00.001+08:00

im sooooo looking forward for Chinese New Year (to get angpaos) and Valentine's Day =)
One more month to go!! =)

2011-01-02T00:48:00.002+08:00

so its now 2011!! huhuhu ^^
i spent the last day of the year with the most impt ppl in my life-my family n him=) i think its the best new year eve ever.we had a vry good view of the fireworks too! i was actually standing on top on sum bench near fullerton.hehe!
so now, 2011.. here i come=)

2010-12-31T00:51:00.001+08:00

hehe..GOODBYE 2010.A BIG WELCOME TO 2011 =)

2010-12-30T01:29:00.002+08:00

so 2010 is gonna come to an end.. time really really flies.. looking back, i only have one thing to say-thank You Jesus for everything You have blessed me with. this year has been full of blessings as well as its challenges. at times i dont even noe whether i cn make it thru. but thank God, i did made it.. although i may cry over disappointments many times but its only temporary. cz everytime things will turn out good in the end. everytime it does =)
im so happy to be able to go HongKong this year. hehe!! love the food and everything bout it. School as usual full of tough situations but still having good frens beside me really help alot.the laughter.the sharing. my family is doing so much better this year thru God's favour. Alvin got a job, Roselyn is getting married next yr!! so excited. im truly truly happy for her =) mummy as always looking young n strong. she is really my wonder woman=) n last but not least.me n akmal=) our r/s went thru quite a few challenges. we had our fights. but thn again. we made it thru.together.having a better, sweeter, stronger r/s. all i cn say is love is all bout putting others first b4 myself..mayb my fren is right-im always the giver. but i like giving and showing care n love to others. i guess its just smth in me. ths yr, i get to noe alot more bout myself again. my weaknesses, the way i manage things in life.. n im so grateful to have God ever so loving me despite us being imperfect. im so blessed being in New Creation Church as i've learn ALOT =) 2010 is indeed all bout restful increase..and it has been a wonderful year.. 2011, will be even better. in faith i trust =)

2010-12-30T00:00:00.032+08:00

Looking Back 2010.........

Best gift EVER!-My Iphone. N its covers!! haha.. thanks Kevin n Akmal!

Good experience of a short photoshoot! =)

Christmas! =)

My 19th bday=)

The adorable Lotso Bear=)

My besties=)

The funny moments i shared with him=)

My handsome sweetheart=)

His 18th Bday=)

Our Anniversaries =)

Our Outings together=)

Jurong Bird Park=)

I finally know how to cycle!! thanks to ferind n edmund=)

My Wonder Woman Mummy=)

First time being a bride'smaid

Alvin's graduation=)

Genting =)

Macau! =)

HongKong!!=)

The Happy Family=)

Syiqin!! =)

Verisia came bck from US=)

Hazy!!=)

Sum cute neoprint collection=)

Mimi's bday=)

DongFang! =)

Kid'sRead Graduation=)

Drug Discovery Day-First time being emcee. i'll always rmb hw i screwed up at the last part..FUNNY!!! XD

Ferind!! =)

2010-12-26T21:35:00.002+08:00

Hi straight hair. hehe^^ Have an awesome Sunday. the Christmas service was GREAT!.. spend the whole afternoon with Syiqin chitchating bout everything..bugis street is as crowded as ever.. (shall go thr again vry soon for last round of shopping).. o and finally bought shoes!! yay!! although its black again, but i love it. i guess black is forever always the most versatile colour =)

2010-12-26T21:23:00.006+08:00

Christmas ^^

2010-12-25T01:21:00.001+08:00

He came that we may have Joy =)
Merry Christmas everyone!!
Spread the love and joy to everyone u know!!
Its the season to celebrate

2010-12-23T02:44:00.000+08:00

.u make me happy.

2010-12-22T23:35:00.002+08:00

yes yes.. i dont noe wat happen to me the whole day. kept thinking of cutting my hair. ask everyone and most of them said NO. hahaha!!! its so funny how mummy say i'll look like aunty with short hair n stuff. she even threaten me that if i cut my hair, she'll ask kevin n sis to remove me as their bridesmaid...TSK!! my mummy.. i love her... ^^
*another day of missing you ^^

2010-12-22T02:04:00.002+08:00

dear you, i really really miss u. miss seeing ur face.miss hugging u.miss ur company.miss spending time with u. sry im abit clingy. dont noe y im like this. guess its just my weakness...but i just want u to noe that i want you to be happy too.. and i do care alot bout everything u like. i really do. so hope u have a great holiday. n just so u noe, i'l be waiting for you at the bus stp when u come home and i'l give u the biggest hug ever. i dont care XD

2010-12-21T18:46:00.000+08:00

2010-12-21T01:53:00.000+08:00

counting down to Christmas

2010-12-21T01:07:00.007+08:00

jurong bird park^^ all the cutie penguins reminded me of Happy Feet. i wanna to buy a stufftoy but it cost almost 50dlrs! crazy shit!
the whole place is just full of birds happily walking around like nobody's business. haha!
im just amazed how colourful their feathers can be=) k la, him n i were like tourists again.
but it was really great. everything bout yesterday=)

2010-12-21T00:27:00.005+08:00

i noe im a baby for crying just bcs u r leaving for 6 days
but im missing you alrdy
im gonna look at our photos everyday until u come bck
i love you lots!

2010-12-20T00:53:00.005+08:00

So..this is my Christmas gift from sis=) recipe book+cookie cutters! haha! for starters, the box looks so girlish(so my type). the cutters looks really cute. and the recipes..YUMYUM! which means that i'l be more in love with baking from now onwards too! so i guess while Akmal is away in kl, i shall start my baking again (to keep myself company n not missing him like some crazy girl) baking cookies during the Christmas season-sounds like a good plan =)

2010-12-19T01:56:00.002+08:00

flea market at scape was awesome.! bought ALOT of clothes for SUPER CHEAP PRICES^^ im a happy girl. watched Narnia with akmal, shafiq, and syiqin.. the movie was alright i wud said. didnt turn out as bad as i thot. hehe! next week shall watch Tron=)

2010-12-17T14:08:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!

2010-12-12T19:15:00.002+08:00

and its Common Test again.....

just gonna do my best, hope for the best

counting down to my long awaited 2weeks break =)

2010-12-07T23:05:00.001+08:00

A Very Good Session Of Laughter After So Long! hehehe~

2010-12-05T23:41:00.002+08:00

wth. im already planning wat to do for my 2 weeks of break.hehe!

2010-12-05T19:21:00.002+08:00

This Morning....
-i forgot to bring my wallet out
-mummy gave me 1dlr coin for bus, i dropped it
-sis asked me to bring her bag of clothes, i left it at the seat at my bus stp (realized it whn i reached mrt stn)
-had to go bck to that bus stp, n thank God! the bag was still there =)
~CLUMSY ME~

2010-12-05T00:16:00.002+08:00

♥♥♥♥

2010-12-04T01:55:00.002+08:00

another crazy+hectic week. i need my retail therapy!!!
i need REST

2010-12-01T23:28:00.001+08:00

Gossip Girl saved me from feeling crappy.

2010-12-01T20:56:00.004+08:00

i miss the old times... badly.
the times where me, Cath, Jayne, Tasya, Azlin, Nadrah,Atiqah, Afiqah, Diyana had in sec sch..
i rmb the times we read those romantic malay novels. gosh. i wonder how much i've read actually.hehe..
i rmb the time where we all went to Cath's hs n watch alot of episodes of Fruit Basket. us laughing until we really cry.
i rmb the times whr we hang out in school most of the time. talking bout everything. mostly jokes that wud make me again-laugh until i cry
i rmb all those sweet memories we had for those 3 years. n although it didnt end very well for me n Cath, i still miss our times tgt =)
n all i cn rmb is just the really good times we had
bcs life now is just too complicated.too blunt.too busy.
bcs the true is, I REALLY MISS HAVING U ALL ARND =(

2010-11-30T20:25:00.001+08:00

i think he was still munching sumthing in his mouth whn this pic was taken.
o well, he looks cute anyway.
-xoxo-

2010-11-30T20:20:00.001+08:00

IM CERTAINLY IN THE CHRISTMAS MOOD ALRDY ^^

2010-11-28T23:53:00.003+08:00

2010-11-27T01:07:00.001+08:00

i need my joy n happiness BACK!

2010-11-27T00:54:00.002+08:00

2010-11-27T00:41:00.002+08:00

study plan for my friday nite failed=(
so much to study, so little time
the heavy workload is getting on everyone's nerves
my emotions r getting haywire at times
i want alot of things but i cnt get them
n i even have extra family drama just now
such 'wonderful' timing for it
hw life cn really be mean to me

2010-11-24T00:22:00.000+08:00

we had a 15mins moment of OMG =)

2010-11-24T00:21:00.000+08:00

2010-11-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

yesterday was my sneezing day.. every 5 mins sneeze. made my nose as red as my gummy bear's nose.. felt awful. even my eyes were very teary.
but thankfully japanese assessment3 went smoothly^^ i cnt believe next week is my last week of jap lesson alrdy.. im gonna miss it. so far i've really learnt alot bout Japan n their culture. really interesting (as compared to Spore culture. no offense) so, the next Asian country i wanna visit is Japan! (my first choice will always be a European country^^) i wanna see sakura flowers, experience their cooling climate (at least i wont get pimples n oily skin), the culture, everything! i think if i really am going japan, i'l take like thousands of pics..hehe! n not forgetting buying a kimono too!
so anyway, today i didnt go to school. didnt even get MC. dont care. but my 11hours sleep really really helped.. im totally fine nw. haha! cut my fringe (finally)... its just shorter.which makes me look like a small girl again-.-
n.today is good day..i finally finish studying microbio!! weeeeeeeeee~ thank God im feeling so much better.no more crying.no more emo post.no more feeling awful.no more thinking of stupid retarded nonsense.
SO ITS BACK TO STUDYING NOW N SCHOOL TMR

2010-11-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

Taylor Swift!!! =)

2010-11-22T01:35:00.002+08:00

i wanna go shopping so badly that i wanna cry whn i see sale everywhr
i wanna spend a day without books
i wanna spend a day with him and camera again
i wanna spend a day not getting caught up with the challenges in life
i wanna spend a day with him laughing so hard that i cry

2010-11-21T23:38:00.002+08:00

we may fall hard at times...stumbling real hard
but we'll all get bck on our feet once more
it takes time but you can do it
never give up on hope
ITS GONNA BE ALRIGHT!

2010-11-21T23:06:00.001+08:00

Wanna Watch This Too! =)

2010-11-21T22:24:00.002+08:00

I WANT HER ALBUM!!!

2010-11-21T00:44:00.001+08:00

Lord Jesus, only You know what im really going through deep inside. Thank You that You'll never leave me nor forsake me. In times of need, You are the only one i can really turn to.

2010-11-20T22:59:00.001+08:00

Dear Lord, wat is happening to me? y am i acting like i dont have favour? =(

2010-11-19T23:50:00.002+08:00

n im feeling like this again.. y does it have to creep in again? i was free from feeling this way for quite sum time and now.. i hit the bottom again... i noe i shudnt feel ths way...but i guess i somehow allowed myself to be vulnerable again.. maybe its just not meant to be for me.. for alot of ppl it is but mayb its not for me.. n here i am staying hopeful wondering will it be a dream come true for me..but im not that strong. i got distracted by the ppl arnd me. n i feel sry for myself... n then the whole cycle starts again. i noe i sound very pessimistic as a Christian.(tsk.. bad testimonial..)
but...i just had another day whr everything just went wrong..well almost everything (donuts and the early Christmas spirit everywhr kinda saved me in the end)
my own personal problems are also tearing me apart lately. gosh. i dont noe wats happening to me lately. im over-sensitive, demanding at times, quick to anger, moody..n the only thing i cn do that helps preventing me from crying at times is to pray.bcs only God noes how i really feel.

2010-11-17T00:25:00.002+08:00

I want to have a hamster as my pet.. but im afraid i cant take good care of it. its too cute to be mistreated.. but i want to have the experience of having a pet.nvr had one in my whole life.
n besides..hamsters and kittens are just tooooo ADORABLE

2010-11-17T00:08:00.002+08:00

My Not-So-Happy Tuesday:
woke up at 8am for a 9am cls -.-
forget to bring money to school -.-
forget to bring notes to study in school -.-
pimples outbreak AGAIN! -.-
bad hair day -.-
wanted to eat donuts but didnt noe that Donut Factory shifted to Square2 -.-

I MUST EAT MY FAVOURITE DONUTS THIS WEEK. I DONT CARE =(

2010-11-16T00:25:00.003+08:00

i promise im gonna cut my hair aft my sis's wedding.but thats like aft April 2011.LOL..long way to go...
life is....normal. go to school. trying not to be late everyday. hehe! study study study for tests. gonna having quiz every week from this week onwards.. tsk!
eating alot lately..getting fatter by the day *hidden fats* trust me=)
been studying until late at nite. but there are still small little things in life that makes me laugh
like how he n i were laughing while seeing our pics from 2007,2008,2009. we really changed ALOT..haha!! i look freaking nerdy! (n thats y i still cnt figure out how he could say i was pretty bck then... haha)
n i just browsed thru Fay's photos of Nicholas at red beret parade (i have no idea wats that but it sure looks cool ^^) gosh.. next time my own bf is gonna enter army. i gonna cry n cry n cry for days. no joke...
anyways..back to pharmacology notes now -.-

2010-11-14T18:29:00.001+08:00

2010-11-12T23:40:00.002+08:00

dear you..
we musnt let the challenges in life rob us of our happiness.our peace at heart. dont let our emotions spoil our day.even when others done us wrong, its not worth it to get vry angry or upset bout it.i miss the times whr u r really really happy, not worrying bout anything. we shud be that way. i noe life aint easy. but trust me. things will get better. we just nid to believe it. both of us shud smile more, hug more and be happy no matter wat life throws at us.

2010-11-12T00:11:00.002+08:00

i might nid a break. or im just not in my right mind nw
i always have a feeling that things have changed.
somehow i cn sense it. things are not the same now.
i noe its not a fairy tale.
but something is missing...

2010-11-10T23:27:00.002+08:00

ur words just did the damage.
ur teasing aint funny anymore.
ur words made me feel bad bout myself.
n i actually thought that u would take it seriously the things i shared.
i noe im not prefect. im far from being perfect.
so dont try to remind me bout the things i've done and bout the things im still doing.
if i knew this wud happen, trust me i wud not have share at all in the first place.

2010-10-31T01:31:00.002+08:00

i read a few of my frens' blogpost... they seemed to be either very sad or upset bout smth =(

2010-10-30T02:25:00.002+08:00

as a good start, i didnt sleep as much in class compared to last sem! haha!

time very flies...my first week of school is over..quite an interesting week..did manage to catch up with my frens n stuff. hehe.. learnt basic japanese for the first time.. i feel like im singing whn i try to pronounce those words..n the written words are like chinese characters. BUT simpler =) i dont mind learning a new language than doing pharmacy-related calculations -.- but sadly i've not been having enough sleep.. thanks to ngee ann that removed their 15mins grace-period, i have to wake up extra early. n even if i did, stupid bus 74 always get caught up in traffic jams. sadness!!
anyway...i celebrated my 3rd year anniversary with him. didnt really celebrate it as he n i were having lessons until 4 (LOL!!) but still had vry vry nice dinner with him PLUS a super nice gift which im LOVING IT=)
n hopefully i can go shopping vry vry SOON (once i get my pay!!!)
n yes! next fri.me.wedding.BRIDEMAID.
so looking forward to next week (although my schedule is kinda bz for next week^^)

2010-10-28T00:16:00.002+08:00

what more can i say?
im the happiest girl with u by my side
we may fight.u may get angry.i may cry
but nth can change hw much we love each other
nth can beat the good times we had for the past 3years
you have indirectly made me a better person without u knowing it
you accept me for who i am and i have practically nth to face
even a face without makeup. wahaha!
whether u say it or not, deep dwn i noe u really care and love for me alot
u always wanna give the best to me
indeed u r the best thing thats ever been mine
Happy 3rd Year Anniversary Sweetheart

2010-10-25T00:33:00.004+08:00

hehe..stole these pics from my bf..he is a really talented photographer to me no matter what anyone says =) love him lots!!

2010-10-25T00:20:00.001+08:00

n its school all over again. time to sleep early again(definitely not 3am anymore) and put on my studying mode again..but like what Pastor Prince just shared in church just now-i have HOPE: joyful and confident expectation of good =) it will never disappoint me because i have a Heavenly Father that loves me dearly..i just had a great message preached on HOPE
So sem2, lets do it....!

2010-10-24T17:20:00.000+08:00

weddings are the sweetest events i always want to attend

2010-10-22T23:48:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was my last day of work. i must say-although i honestly dont have much interest in IT stuff, work was fun when my colleagues are arnd =) they made me laugh everytime im working with them. n although i did some mistakes here n there, they r still patient enuf to teach and guide me. in fact, they teached me alot alot alot of things=) i really really appreciate it. n im really happy and satisfied that i get to earn my own money. looking forward for payday..hahaha! ♥
I really thank God for this job, the favour i've been getting, all the blessings, everything... i feel blessed.. n the holiday has been really great. fruitful and productive.. i shud say that its really AWESOME. so much fun times with my frens, colleagues and of course, him ♥
This is really grace and favour from Christ ♥
So school is starting next week. my first lesson-basic japanese language. with ferind in the same class with me. YAY!! =) pretty excited bout school actually. dont wanna think how hard or easy it might be. just wanna do my best, get a better gpa ♥
I love the life im blessed with ♥♥♥