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♥♥Melanie
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Friday, November 19, 2010
n im feeling like this again.. y does it have to creep in again? i was free from feeling this way for quite sum time and now.. i hit the bottom again... i noe i shudnt feel ths way...but i guess i somehow allowed myself to be vulnerable again.. maybe its just not meant to be for me.. for alot of ppl it is but mayb its not for me.. n here i am staying hopeful wondering will it be a dream come true for me..but im not that strong. i got distracted by the ppl arnd me. n i feel sry for myself... n then the whole cycle starts again. i noe i sound very pessimistic as a Christian.(tsk.. bad testimonial..)
but...i just had another day whr everything just went wrong..well almost everything (donuts and the early Christmas spirit everywhr kinda saved me in the end)
my own personal problems are also tearing me apart lately. gosh. i dont noe wats happening to me lately. im over-sensitive, demanding at times, quick to anger, moody..n the only thing i cn do that helps preventing me from crying at times is to pray.bcs only God noes how i really feel.